Welcome back, Me.
After being gone for a long period for the first time I am experiencing an emotion I am not familiar with and have not felt in quite a while.
Guilt.
I feel terrible, the odd thing is I’m not quite sure on a reason.
Just now, I bought a 24-pack of Twisted teas for $30 (a case).Truthfully, I only wanted a 6 pack which would have been $12. Maybe have even gotten two, but I think 6 would be more than enough for me for this month.
I do not really like drinking to be honest but it can spicen things up, not to mention I am a lightweight. Truth is, I have no friends: I really don’t drink.
Suddenly, sitting in the car driving my runner home I was overcome with guilt. For drinking? I don’t think so.
Perhaps for spending $30 on something I won’t really use, or spending $30 at all.
Now I am awestruck and unsure what to do with said beverages.
COPING: to make myself feel better, I have been justifying what I have skipped out on paying for and the dinner with Victor, movies with Amanda or Tyler and it all balances out.
JUST IN! Realizing Victor wanted to drink and chill this week makes me feel better about the purchase. Maybe I’ll ask for some money, but allow him to have unlimited drinks:)
I feel less guilty, and I feel I have learned. A case is 24, not a six pack.
Time to pregame to Of Monsters and Men FOR Of Monsters and Men tonight and be carefree.
#recovery #mine #2013 #image #diary #blithe #anorexia #bulimia #selfharmmm #bpd #bipolar #anxiety | figured id make a list of reasons, goal: 365 reasons. (not too sure if i like the headers though; im more of a minimalistic person)
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“I feel like I’m losing friends because of my depression. I used to be fun and popular and now no one wants to hang out with me and when one does I feel like its out of pity. I’m alone.”
